haha i shall put in some effort to blog, since i'm not in the mood to study right now.. though i seriously wonder how jon finds the time to blog everyday.. is it cuz he doesn't exercise? or because he doesn't study? not exactly true though, he spends time playing dota, i dont?

anyway it was really crazy week i had.. first of all was the flight being cancelled on the day of the departure, and we stayed at crown plaza hotel, how cool is that? then i asked elsa for lunch with the guys the next day, and i had dinner with felix after that.. hahaa it's quite paiseh cuz all the hype about us leaving and in the end we're still in singapore that night.. everything went well the 2nd night, and the food on board air france was good too, but the in flight entertainment was really...... ugh..

when we got to paris, things didnt go as smoothly cuz the delay at the customs was really long and we missed our connecting flight to marseille, which really messed up the day's schedule.. den the weekend began blah blah blah, went to aix and got back at 5am, which was like 1pm in singapore? was dead beat..

lessons started on monday, and tuesday, and today's wednesday, it's tough trying to sit in class for 6 hours a day.. come back and revise, and exercise, but i'm getting fat, and the food here is really good, need to burn off those calories man.. i bought a sit up mat, and we shared money to buy a pull up bar.. hopefully we all get to keep in shape, and i'll try really hard, promise..

just 2 days in france made me unwilling to go back to singapore, maybe it's because the longing hasn't set in yet.. i've certainly going through a paradigm shift, and there are some things which i feel shouldn't happen the way it is in singapore.. lol, be more like an ang mor!

is it like 6am sgp time? i think i'm drunk..

it's been more than a week since i've blogged, and surely that doesn't happen very often does it? not in recent times i suppose.. there are actually reasons for that.. u see, there were french classes on thursday evenings, and exam and video con. on friday, saturday and sunday were spent outside, monday did clearance, tuesday shopped for groceries and visited my sec sch teachers, wednesday had dinner with the gang, yesterday had french lesson, and exam today.. surely it was a busy week?

well, my departure has been confirmed, the flight is scheduled on 21st october at 2255hrs, that leaves me with about 5 days in sg? i guess the pre-flight admin work has kinda marred the excitement we had.. and admin, does not include packing my luggage. hahaha that is a totally different issue. i've packed my clothes into the 25kg box, and u know, i always say "girls have so many pairs of shoes" i think i'm pretty "girlish" after packing my stuff. clothes and shoes, added up to around 32kg, and i'm not even done! =X not to mention i have 16kg of foodstuff to pack into the luggage. my god. i really don't know where to start? je suis assez paresseux, quelqu'un aide?

dix-huit mois, c'est rapide, je reviendray fier. au revoir!

14 days from now, i should probably be at the airport, having dinner/chilling out while waiting for my flight.. tickets havent been confirmed as of now, but our guess would be the SIA flight at 2350 since it's the only available one.. there could always be changes though..

anyway, it wasn't all that good the past 2 weeks, ups and downs, to begin with, i failed my turbine engines topic with "fantango" results of 26.67%.. how good can i get man? that made me realise i totally dont have the engineering blood in me.. ahhaha, i'm still better off calculating percentages.. hmm, i would say the good thing is i got to meet up with andre and co.? and not forgetting glamis on one of my nights out.. haha.. timbre!

tsk, it's been quite pek chek in a sense that i'm still pretty "chill" about leaving, but everyone around me is busy emo-ing.. there's jon with his repeated playlists of "when you're gone" "i'm yours" "qi shi bu xiang zou" and gab with his "i can't imagine blah blah blah"

sometimes i wanna tell them "look, it's just a couple of years, and who knows, we might just come back after 6 months.." of cuz, i understand they have their own reservations about it, i have some of mine too.. but i believe, this is something i wanna pursue in, i dont mind giving up 18-21 months in singapore for my really exciting future..

yesterday, i emo-ed at night too.. jon and i were chatting in the middle of the night, and i told him, i'm afraid i'm not good enough, cuz at this point of time, i dont believe i'm "indispensable" to the organization.. haha, u know, in some places, u have the feeling that if u go, it's their loss, but i'm pretty sure if i get kicked out, it's definitely my loss..

in life, there are always certain things that have no 2nd chances to it.. in fact, i'm speaking from experience by having blown one of those chances already.. now i hope this one wont turn out that way too..

now, off to other things, i'm pretty confused about it. spent a whole lot of time telling myself, "no, that's not what u should do" and yet, part of me cant resist. wad's that i'm missing? is it a feeling just because i cant get it that's why i want it? i'm not so sure anymore. perhaps it doesn't matter, and it would really help if it could be cast aside for the time being..